We made it, today officially marks 10 weeks. I high fived Stephen (as we do every Friday) congratulating us on making it one more week. In one sense 10 weeks seems like nothing, but I can remember when I was 5 and 10 seemed so far away but now it's here and 12 weeks will be here soon too! I remember with both pregnancies it seemed like time took forever to pass by but in the end it all seemed so quick. I think with Jacob it was because we knew the closer we got to his date meant the sooner he would also be gone so we didn't want it to happen. It's the same this time, 10 weeks seems like nothing at the moment, but then I think back, it's already been 10 weeks! 10 weeks down 26 or less to go. When I see the 26 I think, wow, that is soon! I'm sure it won't feel like it but in the long run, it is short.
Our next appointment will be July 18th, as I think I mentioned. It's our 12 week scan and the end of the first trimester. That is all we are focused in at the moment. Making it to that appointment and knowing Bee is doing well. I think our choice to take this pregnancy week by week and not get too ahead of ourselves is the only thing keeping me sane. Trust me, it takes an incredible amount of strength and patience to only go week by week and not think about the future but I know it's the best for us. I know if we think too far ahead we will get overwhelmed and I will fall apart. Not to say I don't ever think about the future, of course I do, especially when I have dreams about it (and good ones at that) it's hard not to think about it every now and then. But overall, week by week is really working for us and it has taken a lot of preparation to be able to do so and a ton of patience but it's working. We go along, day by day, thankful for what we have, thankful Bee has even made it this far. We know on any given day it can all end, nothing is guaranteed, most think once you are out of the first trimester it's clear sailing but for us, our circumstances arouse in the 2nd and 3rd trimester so we never have a safe point.
Another funny thing, I can't even look at food or think about it without gagging, I am so sensitive to things right now, it's so bad! Thankfully I did get my meds down today as the gagging wasn't as bad.
But here is to 10 weeks (and quite the little belly going on) 1 1/2 more weeks and we get to see Bee. One more week and we have made it to 11 weeks. I pray we make it, I pray Bee stays strong....I pray my sanity lasts and my stress levels subside.