That's all it will be and then Bee will be here! I still can't believe it and I still do not feel this one is going to come home (hubby sure does though) My heart is still trying to protect me and it's doing a damn good job. To me I feel so disconnected from this whole event. I feel more like something will happen tomorrow, I'll stay a few more days and then Stephen and I will head home to the kitties. The thought of bringing a baby home does not seem real and perhaps it is because we have been here twice and have never had that. The past cannot let me see into the future at this point.
I have no idea what tomorrow holds. I have no idea if Bee will be born alive and healthy or dead. It's my reality. I can't pray hard enough for Bee to be born alive and healthy. These are going to be the longest 24 hours in my life! Thankfully visitors and lots of appointments should help the day pass by.....or at least I can hope. I have no idea where things go from here and to be honest it scares the crap out of me!
I probably will not post for a few days as having access to a real computer will not happen and there is no way I am typing on a phone. I have decided to keep my facebook wall open and we will announce on there shortly after Bee is born. Please keep us in your prayers, we are so close again and I want nothing more then this time to be our time. I want Bee to truly be our rainbow and Lord knows we've danced through the storms long enough!