19 weeks 4 days: We get to go in and see Bee again tomorrow. At our last appointment they were not able to get a clear picture of the heart. The tech could see what she needed to see but she could not get a picture as Bee was just a bit too small. Even though we know things last time were decent with Bee's heart, it does not lessen the anxiety. I know too well that we could walk in tomorrow and our world could come crashing down yet again. I fully expect it to at some point because that's all I know. There are very few days where I feel that Bee will be okay. My anxiety has seemed to slow a little, passing one huge milestone waiting for the next all while knowing at any point, anything can happen. We're just a long for the ride.
I do love the eco ultrasounds because they let you watch the whole time so we get some good quality Bee viewing in tomorrow (husband included, they actually let the husband come in at the beginning too) Though I wonder now that it's in OB ultrasound if they'll still let us watch and let Stephen in...we'll find out tomorrow I guess. At least I know they will let us see Bee and get another picture and it it's awesome tech T, it will be a great appointment (assuming everything is okay)
We pop in to see the doctor afterwords and will be in there every two weeks until about 28 weeks which will be every week until 32 weeks then a few times a week and a hospital stay at the end. I guess it is time to let people at work know. My plan was to tell my boss Thursday after our appointment tomorrow (which is still the plan) but it's kind of a bad week as one of the ladies at work had a mild stroke so we are already short staffed and don't know how long we will be that way. But I do see that as an opportunity for me to really show them they made the right choice and take on the extra work load.
Here is to Bee's heart being A okay and nothing but good news tomorrow (and I'm really looking forward to my chat with the social worker, it's much much needed and to top it off, Bereaved Families meeting tomorrow night, long emotional day but I know it will be good)