This week Bee and I are doing nothing, with the exception of seeing some of our awesome friends and the newest rainbow addition. But for now, everything else will have to wait. Last week was INSANE. It was more than insane and my body is starting to shut down. I am in PTSD overload and I need to relax and rejuvenate. I can't go on like this. I can feel the angry, the agitation at every little thing. I have taken rescue remedy the last few days and I've never needed it as much!
I am beyond thankful that I have been presented with amazing opportunities the last week, but all at once is far beyond my limitations. I will say that with all the good things that have happened, the bad with finding out about the surviving Potter's Baby, has really softened my heart. I have been able to understand and I'm starting to deal with those emotions. I am starting to find a place for them and in a sense, they've found a place on there own because of everything that has happened.
But I am burnt out. It is starting to take effect on my family so I need my time away. I will get to emails when I can, I will work on my other blog when I can (http://babysnest.blogspot.ca/) Check it out if you haven't! I will work through all the media requests as we go along and figure out where to go but not right now. Right now I will go out , get some fresh air and enjoy the beautiful outdoors with Bee because right now I also have a heavy heart. Ty's birthday is approaching and I find myself getting sadder each day. So much to do but my daughter will always be first. I refuse to sit with her and be on my computer. She deserves my fill attention. If it means some late nights, then so be it, but while Bee is awake, she has me.
I know my limits and I have reached them so I am going to take the time I need and will be back when I am more settled.
Some times it is easier and less exhausting to let the defeat take over. Sometimes it is just simply easier to throw the towel in, even if for a few days.
But please, we are still trying to raise funds to donate to World Vision in memory of the boys. We are almost half way to our first goal of donating a stable to a village. If you can, even small amounts will helps, check it out: