I am truly humbled. I am speechless. I am sitting here sobbing like a baby because I don't know what to feel or say. I'm eating ice cream. I have chills (but not from eating ice cream). Wow......just wow. Is this really happening? Someone pinch me.
This year we felt the need to do something big to celebrate Ty and Jacob since we finally felt we were in a place to do so emotionally. On their last few birthdays we've kept very private. We were too heartbroken to face the world. But this year, Bee has given us our life back and we finally felt it was the year. We created this website:
Our intent was to have family and friends donate some money so we could build a well or donate animals to a family in a 3rd world country. Anything we received beyond that would go towards helping pay for my medical treatments since they are not covered by insurance (no natural treatment is) and they aren't exactly cheap either but they work!
So I posted the page and thought this would be our big thing for the boys. I guess they had other plans. The Bald Eagle on Jacob's birthday was pretty impressive but I must say, as I sit here right now, something miraculous is happening on facebook. Something incredible.
Last week at counseling I talked about how I never feel strong. I always see myself as weak even though others always tell me how strong I am. I decided I'd post my story on Birth Without Fear as I had been reading other moms "I am strong" stories for a few months. I thought it would be good for me to list why I need to recognize my own strength and sure, I knew some people would read it and perhaps even a few would comment. But never, never in a million years would I expect my story to go viral.
My post has now been up for 48 hours and as of right now it has received 150,000 likes, 27,00 shares, 10,000 comments. Read that again, 150,000 people have read my story and liked it. 150,000 people have for a brief second, thought about Ty and Jacob. 27,000 people have shared my story and 10,000 people felt the need to comment. Again, read over those numbers. Take a moment to let it sink in. It continues to go up.
This is big. I mean this is HUGE. I know Ty and Jacob are behind this amazing thing that is happening.
I'm in shock. I'm in total shock. All I can do is sit here and eat ice cream because taking it all in is overwhelming. I should add, I've had over 200 new friend requests, but due to keeping very private and protecting my family I won't be able to accept them. However, I will take the time to read each and every comment when I get the chance (10,000 is a lot) and I will get to the over 300 facebook messages I have received. In time I will get there.
In time I will breathe again. I never could have guessed this would get this huge. I am the face of infant loss and now so are my boys. Their names are out they're making a difference. Giving people hope and faith. I couldn't ask for a more awesome way to remember them during this very difficult time of year. This has gone above and beyond anything I could imagine.
I am truly, truly humbled. Perhaps I should write a book.
I should add, I know there are some not so nice comments, here is what I have to say about those. As I say, not all people have been blessed with amazing parents like mine who taught me how to be a compassionate person and one of the true morals of life, if you dont have anything nice to say, dont say anything at all. Perhaps she is just jealous of all the attention Ty and Jacob are receiving. Sure some people don't understand this way of life and haven't had the experience of heartache but for those few people, there are thousands being given hope and faith right now. So for the few who feel the need to say hurtful things, I will pray for you. I will pray that you never have to endure the heartache I have and that you will find your way in life. But you words will not hurt me because my words have given hope and faith to thousands, that is moving mountains!