9 weeks 6days: I think my interview today went pretty well. The funny thing was, going in I did not want to go in the first place. I didn't want to deal with a new job but still forced myself to go (I think only by the power of God) and I'm really glad I went. I really hope I do get this job and I know it's full time but it seemed like such a great little place to work. The boss was an incredibly nice man (who pays himself for his employees benefits, that right there says a lot) and it just seemed like a very laid back, easy going, stress free nice little office and now I hope I didn't bomb the interview and I get a call back. I really can see myself here but I don't want to set myself up for disappointment if I don't get it because I will be back to not knowing what to do and with that comes even more stress (which I am trying to avoid) Though starting a new place already 3 months pregnant and showing will be hard to hide for a bit longer.
Bee has been good today. I was really worried I wouldn't make it to my interview because I have been gagging hard core all day. I don't feel sick, like morning sickness but I have been gagging up a storm which in turn, upsets my stomach and then does make me feel sick. I don't know what it is about today but I can't stop gagging. I have been able to get a bit of food down but not much, fluids are fine though. Speaking of which, I know some people may offer some advice on being pregnant but it really bothers me because I've been pregnant twice and I know what I'm doing. It's like when people tell me these things their saying it because I didn't do a great job the first two times and killed my children, so please think before you offer me any pregnancy advice. I've been here twice, I know everything I am suppose to be doing. Back to Bee, so yes gagging today and I did have to take diclectin (YAH and need a refill BOO) and now it is time for me to go off for a snooze to rest this little one.
Also, a suggestion to pinterest. When I go to look at things under DIY/Crafts or Home Decor PLEASE don't have pictures of food under those titles because at this very moment, if I see anything food related my insides are going to come out. I can't even look at food, smell food or think of food without gagging. Maybe the gagging is due to the fact that I went off dicelctin for a few days because I thought I felt better....I can only hope once I get some more doses in it settles down. I really do not know how I made it through my interview without gagging because I can't even talk without gagging, I gagged there and on the way home. I truly do believe God stepped in and helped me through! I also got an email saying he was going to call me for a second interview...fingers crossed! I will say this is the only reason we have not announced this pregnancy yet. Stephen really wants to share Bee with everyone and I totally get that and we have with the people we need the support from but I can't let this keep me from getting a job. So once I have the job and once we go to our next ultrasound Bee will be revealed!