Bee has been so great today, in fact most days Bee is great (with the rare exception that requires a visit to L&D) I have been finding that when I start to freak out that I don't remember when Bee moved last and decide to do a kick count, most of the time as soon as I start Bee starts kicking or moving away and pounds out those 10 kicks in some record times. I love this, it is very reassuring to me (which is why the one day when Bee was not moving I was terrified, it's not like Bee).
I'm glad Bee's happy and well because I am not. I have 4 more days of work...4 more days too many! I should have heeded my Dr's advice and went off last Friday but for the sake of EI and not to screw over work I decided to go one more week....it's going to be the longest most painful, hellish week at work. With each day I get more tired and with me being more exhausted I have run out of patience. No patience is not good for working where I work...it's going to be a very rough next few days with many challenges, add on the fact that on Wednesday we have to go to the dreaded car seat clinic but at least I get a massage on Thursday and some goodies from the Bereaved Families bake sale on Friday and then that's it. But tomorrow is only Tuesday, it seems so far away and Tuesdays are notorious for being crappy long drawn out days anyways...this is going to be interesting.
These Braxton hicks have also got worse. I'm sure it has everything to do with the stress but I do need to ask next time because right now I am getting quite a few a day, sometimes not to far apart and sometimes lasting more than a minute the only thing is my stomach is not getting hard like it should. I mean it gets hard but not contraction hard. So I really do not know what is going on other then I am in a lot of pain and last night was the first night they were so bad they woke me up. As long as it doesn't mean Bee will be here sooner then expected (as much as I want Bee out right now while Bee is alive, I know being in me and baking a few more weeks if what is best, no matter how hard that is for me anxiety wise) plus we still have to move....which I am thankful I am off next week so I can get packing because it is non existent at the moment. I always have intentions of coming home and getting a few things packed but I am just too tired. I look forward to 8 or 9 pm because then I can justify going to bed.
Another new symptom, one I had bad with Jacob, itchy belly. Itchy belly leads to scratching which leads to stretch marks and not the pretty kind! It's no wonder I am so tired, between being pregnant and having that, the itching, braxton hicks and hip pain at night do not equate for a good nights rest. So on that note, off to bed I head to try and get in a good amount of sleep..oh did I mention the constant bathroom visits too? But at least Bee and evil duck are doing well.....it's the only thing keeping me going.