17 weeks 1 day: I am going to treat myself to one luxury for Bee....I have had my eye on it since just after Ty passed and I'm going to get it. I have decided I am going to treat myself to the diaper bag I have had my eye on for over two years! I went to order it online today since Kohls is having a sale but this is what I found:
Jessica Bishop™ Butterfly Personal Diaper Bag sale $110.00 regular $110.00
I think Kohls forgot what the meaning of "sale" is. Generally when one puts something on "sale" it is cheaper then the regular price....just saying. I will check back later today to see if it is fixed, plus I have a coupon for an additional 20% off. I am a little weary to order it this soon, I always think things I do is going to jinx the baby, like picking up fall/winter mat clothes tomorrow. But I have to do it, it is something I have wanted for so long and the significance of the butterfly's is why I really want it. It's a reminder of the boys as butterfly's represent those gone too soon. Butterfly's represent so much about life and death and the bag just makes me feel close to my boys so I am going to treat myself (which I never do) I always had a vision to be a styling mom, which took a drastic turn to sweat and yoga pants after the boys died but I promised myself and my kids that I will take care of myself. Though I must admit, yoga pants will still be worn. 'They are sooo comfy and they can look stylish with the right shirt and boots.
I've really struggled with appearance every since Ty died. I just don't really care much and I don't know how to dress myself, I have never been one for fashion. Add to the fact that fashion costs money, even cheap fashion so I don't really see the point in it. I just never spend money on myself. But this diaper bag WILL be bought for me!
Anyways, today Stephen did not have to travel, in fact his traveling is done for the most part (WHOOOO) even though that cuts down his hours which means a cut in pay, I don't care. Money is never important to us, as long as the bills are paid and there is a roof over our head we care about each other. Getting to spend time with him is what is important. He does have to travel to Peterborough next week but after that he is London bound YAHHHHH. So today we decided to celebrate, went out for breakfast at the market, finally got a Burek which I have been eyeing for 3 years and let me tell you, if you live in London go to the Market to Hot Oven and get the apple cinnamon Burek....you will thank me. Also, as a Nelles pregnancy tradition we headed down to Port Stanley to get some Mackies Fries! Here are some pics of the festivities: P.S. I'm really glad I got in some good husband time today, it was much needed and nice! And no I did not really get two ice cream cones, I was just holding Stephens for a moment.
Today was a great day, Bee has been kicking which is giving so much reassurance. But I must admit, as good as my day was my heart is with another mommy at the moment. I'm asking everyone to keep baby Bentley in your prayers. He has shaken baby syndrome from his father and is fighting for his life in a Michigan hospital. Also please keep his mommy in your prayers as she deals with this shock and having had a child fighting for his life in the NICU I can tell you, it's one of the hardest things to have to go through. There is a picture of him on facebook but for privacy reasons I do not want to post it here, it is truly heart breaking though. If you are on facebook you can visit his page and leave some encouragement for his mommy: http://www.facebook.com/groups/137740589702443/