The above photo was taken one year ago today. We had just moved the last box into our new apartment and I was setting up (as you can tell hugely pregnant) so scared about the coming weeks, trying to be cautiously optimistic. We had left our old home, it was all we had known with the boys but it was time for a new start. The old place was riddled with problems; mouse issues, lack of heat, no washer and dryer, dangerous stairs that were out for us, bad memories, sadness, heartache, mold, leaky windows, guy downstairs that smoked (which came into our apartment). I mean I don't even know how we lasted 3 years there! Actually I do. Ty died, that's how we ended up living in hell for three years. Ty died then Jacob died which took a huge hit to our down payment on a house. It took a huge hit to our careers. It took a huge hit to every single thing in our life. But for Bee we needed to start over, for her and for us. We moved in not knowing our future. Not knowing if Bee's room would remain empty or if finally we would have our arms filled with love and a living child.
We couldn't imagine that one year later our lives would be changed dramatically for the better. After Ty ad Jacob died Stephen and I rid our lives of the excess baggage we had, within 11 months we had gotten rid of over 3/4 of what we owned. We learned the lesson that material objects do not matter. When we moved into our new apartment, this was a very good lesson for us to have learned. Though our new place is a bit bigger in size, the storage has significantly decreased. We do have use of the attic but its a pain to get up there so most things up there are only used once a year. But that means we live a pretty simple life. We don't own a lot and I like it that way. We are never stressed about having the latest and greatest gadget or car or whatever. We much prefer to spend time together as a family, taking trips, going for walks, decorating the Christmas tree etc.
Though our new apartment is not our forever home, realistically we do need a bigger place to expand our family, we are blessed to have it for the time being. It serves its purpose for where we are in life right now. It is by far like a mansion compared to our last place. We make it work, we have no other choice but to make it work for now. It may not have some things we wish we had (a place to garden, a yard for Bee to play in, a bit more storage etc) but we make it work because that's all we can do. I look around our apartment one year later and see the change we have made. If you step into my house, everything with the exception of our bed and our couch is well loved. It was passed down or we bought it used. I wouldn't have it any other way. I think it really adds character to our home and makes it more of a home. It may not be fancy but we aren't fancy people. You'll notice we do not have a bare wall. I have filled our walls with pictures. Though we rent, this is still our home. I want Bee to have good memories here. I would love for us to be in our forever home so she always have that in her heart, but right now that's not possible so we'll make do with what we have. One year ago, that lady in the picture was scared out of her mind about the future and now, well she still is but she has an amazing little girl to keep her going.
I am happy we had a new place for our fresh start. I am happy Bee is in a safe, warm home filled with love. I am happy that we have this place, I searched long and hard for it (some of you may remember the countless posts about looking for a new place, it was NOT fun!) and it is temporarily ours.
So here is to one year in our home, our temporary home that has been filled with love, laughter and many tears (good and bad). When we moved in a year ago I had no idea where we would end up but at least I knew we had a roof over our head, no mice, heat, a washer and dryer (the dishwasher was just an added bonus) safe stairs, no smoking neighbour and the best part of it all, our living, breathing, healthy child.