12 weeks 3 days: I blogged about my first day of work on the other blog so here I will talk about a great thing that happened yesterday. To begin, I never like being on medication while pregnant (obviously I know I need my thyroid meds and the occasional gravol) but I like to avoid all other possible birth defect causers at any cost it may bring me. I was really sick with Ty but did not take Diclectin until second trimester when I started tossing my cookies more. With Jacob I barely needed it, only around the 9 1/2 week mark. I never wanted to be on it but this time I had to. For the sake of staying hydrated and eating what I could there was no other choice. I could not do it without it for the health of me and Bee. Anytime I am put on medication to solve a temporary problem my goal is always to get off of it as fast as I can but with how sick I have been it just has not been an option to try and stop at this point. Well, until yesterday. As of Friday I cut my progesterone in half (weaning off of it, will be done this Friday) and I figured with taking it less perhaps I will feel better. I haven't yet but this afternoon for the fun of it I decided not to take my lunch Diclectin and wouldn't you know, I actually feel okay. I still feel nauseous but it is manageable. I am taking this as a promising sign I will be off of it in a few weeks. I will continue it this week and bring my lunch time pills with me in case I need it but I do need something to make it through the first week of work. My plan is to take one Friday night and one Saturday morning and see how I do. So I'll cut if in half and see if I can manage it. If so I'll stay on that dose for another week or two and try going with just the one at night. I am hopeful this is a good sign that I will be able to come off of it in the next little while, as it has always been my goal.
I was even still able to eat real food without taking it though I did get a bit nauseous around dinner time but I think it was because of my vitamins. Here is to hoping though...hoping it's only a few more weeks and I will be Diclectin free and feeling great! It'd be nice if my energy level could come back too..I miss it!
Also, while I was at the cemetery yesterday I noticed something, perhaps a sign from the boys. The last few times I have been there I have not seen any deer (which is unusual) but last time I drove by and stopped when I saw two males and one female....Bee is a girl? I think she is, I had a dream she was and I really feel it and there are so many signs.
*I spoke TOO soon!!! Not more then 30 minutes after I wrote this a wave of nauseousness hit me so hard that day officially marks the first time I have thrown up....man I do not miss this and I WILL be going back on 4 Diclectin a day...either that or Bee really does NOT like pickles.....blah! No more pickles thats for sure!
12 weeks 4 days: First day of work went well, I'm sure I would have enjoyed it a lot more if I didn't feel like poo. Ever sine I threw up last night I have been sooooo pukie. I had to do everything in my power to keep things down today, there were a few close calls but I did not want to puke on my first day of work and then have to explain that I was pregnant. I'm still hoping to keep it hidden for 4 more weeks. I took extra diclectin today which made for a very sleepy mama, it was hard to pay attention. But I took lots of notes to go over so I can remind myself. There is a lot to learn but I do think I'll like it there. I have a goal of becoming a credit counselor in the next few years I also love my office and all the natural light it brings in, going to buy some plants to liven it up a bit. One downfall, bathroom is upstairs so I have to make sure I'm up there before I get sick if I feel like it. I usually have a few seconds warning and some dry gagging before the good stuff begins and if it happens I'll just have to tell them why and pray they still want me there. They put me right to work answering phones which was scary but I managed. Not much else to report, I am beyond exhausted and I'm pretty sure I'll be seeing the little bit of dinner I manage to choke down in a little while. I hope this is not a new thing, puking at night...I thought I was past the puking stage! I'd understand if I was still sick but to get worse? That has not happened before, I swear Bee is totally a girl! I always knew I would have two boys and then a little girl, of course I did not expect my boys to be angels in Heaven but I just have a feeling. I was right with Ty and I wasn't sure with Jacob but this time I say girl. I still don't know if we'll find out or keep it a secret...only time will tell. I plan on hitting the sack early tonight, see I woke up excited this morning because it was 5am when I woke up and I knew I didn't have to be up until 7am....but my body thought 5am was a perfectly good time to be up and I could not fall back asleep, I know it doesn't help the exhausted stage and my throat is sore today too, thinking from puking or getting sick. Whatever it is, when I get home I will be lazing around. I don't know if this entry makes any sense, my mind is so frazzled at the moment...sorry if it is just a bunch of randomness but I am too tired to have a proper thought process. It's probably better I end it at that and go lay down to relax my tootsies! Oh and pray I don't see dinner again.