18 weeks 5 days: Today was not a great day. It was Jacob's birthday but I tried not to think about it much because it would become too overwhelming. I woke up and just felt really tired and on my way to work I started to cough. The coughing did not stop, runny nose and sore throat started. Finally at 1pm I came home (I made sure to stay and get all my work done first) I slept and had some soup, ice cream and potatoes and corn. A few of the women in my rainbow pregnancy group suggested peppermint tea or anything with honey so I used both these suggestions. I am not a tea drinker by any means and when I first tried the peppermint tea it almost made me puke but as brilliant as I am, I came up with a solution. I mixed the tea and honey with hot chocolate and it was actually good and not only that, it really did help my throat so it will be my drink of choice the next few days. I'm also using Hydra Sense nasal spray to clear my passages and Tylenol when needed but other than that, this is a natural remedy cold I am on.
I do not want to use anything that could harm Bee (and I feel guilty enough with the Tylenol even given all the studies) and the only thing I care about is Bee's safety. I don't care how shitty I feel, I will suffer through as long as it does not affect Bee. I know of course I need to get better so I can feel better and take better care of myself for Bee but for the moment, I'm fine feeling crappy if Bee is okay. It terrifies me so much to be sick while pregnant, well this time at least. I know it can cause problems if it gets really bad (of which I'm usually good and at the doctors before it gets too bad) but it scares me. It scares me that even as careful as I am about washing hands and avoiding sickies that I can still get sick. I know I am not safe from anything and the thought of losing Bee because I was sick is just another worry and fear.
Stephen has done a good job at taking care of me, he ran out a few different times to get me what I needed and made me some potatoes and corn for dinner. I just pray he does not get this because Lord knows I do not want to have to deal with a man cold, not even a pregnant cold is as bad as a man cold....speaking of which I had to post this video here because it is SO true! Here is to getting better so I know that Bee is safe and for peppermint tea with honey and hot chocolate ad Stephen NOT getting a man cold.