16 weeks 3 days: Well I officially have an illness non-pregnancy related and it has me winded up the wall with worry. Today I woke up feeling incredibly ill and not morning sickness ill, I mean I'm going to throw my guts up ill because something in my tummy is funky. I took a diclectin and figured I'd try to go to work. I have only been taking one diclectin for almost 5 days now so the extra one this morning made it hard for me to keep my eyes open. It didn't really help. Around noon I caved and took a gravol because it was only getting worse. I did manage to eat a baked potato for lunch and drank a large sprite to ease my tummy woes. It seems to have worked for the most part. Now I'm just dealing with feeling hot and cold, being tired, having a sore throat and the sniffles. I thought I had a fever but I've been checking and the highest it got was up to 99.1. I know pregnant women get sick all the time and their okay but I also know some moms who lost their little ones because they got sick so it has me on edge. I think this evening I will take a Tylenol (fever is the major thing that can harm the baby) and see how I feel tomorrow and if it's not better off to the walk in clinic I go.
I know there isn't much they can do or much I can do but I think seeing a doctor is important. If anything it'll make me feel a bit better. Stephen is aware in Barrie today and will be home late because someone can't do a tour until 8pm. That puts him home around 11:30 if he is lucky. Tonight I am going to try to eat a bit of dinner and then go rest, maybe watch some netflix or something but I know I need to rest tonight. Perhaps all the business I have been doing over the last few days took a toll on me and my body is just telling me to rest. So rest I shall! Hoping I feel heeps better tomorrow so I know it hasn't affected the baby much. If not, well I'll deal with it then.
16 weeks 4 days: Day two of being sick. I woke up this morning with my tummy feeling better. I was careful what I ate for breakfast though, I didn't want to jinx it. I do have a bit of a sore throat (no fever YAH) coughs, tired, runny nose so I suspect it is a every day run of the mill cold. I was cold today and all I wanted for lunch was Timmies chicken noodle soup. I went on a search and discovered the ones closest to work were closed BOO so I settled for some sodium filled pre packaged crap. But because my husband rocks and he is awesome he showed up with some Timmies :0) I had already eaten by this point so I am asving it for dinner. Going to try and kick this cold before it kicks me and Bee (who has moved today thank GOD) I will say, every day Bee kicks and I can feel it gives me a bit more reassurance, not a lot, barely anything, but a bit.
16 weeks 5 days: One week until the big day, the day our fate will change on way or another, good or bad. I woke up feeling better today, I was hungry. That's a good sign. Still sore throat runny nose blah but I now know it's nothing major. No fever thankfully, just a lot of cramps and pulled muscles. Actually I felt better most of the day. Work has been quiet with the boss gone so it has given me more time to think but at this very moment, I'm still feeling okay. I give myself until Saturday before the realization train runs me over. Who knows, maybe my boys are giving me oodles of strength to make it through the next week. It is after all only a week, it'll be here before I know it and I took the whole day off to celebrate....or cry, whatever happens I won't be going back to work that afternoon.
I think one thing that has actually given me a lot more reassurance then I'm giving it credit is the fact I can feel Bee kick and a few times a day. It's nothing normal yet and Stephen can't feel it but I can and I didn't with Jacob until around 22 weeks due to lack of fluid, so I'm choosing to see this as a good sign. If I can feel baby this early that has got to mean there is enough fluid. I would talk more about gender as I think we intend on finding out if Bee wants us to know but I posted a separate blog for that.
I have also been doing my homework on some baby products we still need. We never got everything we needed with both the boys because we were counting on gifts when the boys were born and at Christmas so there are still a few things we need. I've debated whether or not to buy them before hand (the Halo Snuza will be bought before hand) but the other things may wait as welcome baby presents. I think I finally narrowed it down to a hand full of baby carriers I like. Ergo, Baby K-Tan and Mei Tai but now a few people have said Beco so I'm out of thoughts. I wish there was a way to try all of them but not all stores carry them so I'm going to go in what I think and what others suggest. I fully expect to be paying at least $100 for a good one, I'm looking for one that is infant through Toddler so I know there a bit more pricey but worth it.
The funny thing is, when I research these things, I don't picture myself using them, I don't dream of what it might be like to wear one with Bee in it. I haven't got to that point yet. All I think about is the logistics of these products.
I enjoyed lunch today with a good friend which helped ease some anxiety, it always does. Talking to people who have been in my shoes, there is something so magical about it. They understand every aspect of what is happening.
Sicky seems to be going away and I'm still on 1 diclectin, hoping to try and come off of it this weekend as the gagging in the morning is dying down. We'll see how it goes. At least I don't have too many things to do Saturday so if I am sick I can just take an emergency gravol and pass out. Actually napping all day sounds likes a great idea.