Remember how I said I didn't really have any pregnancy side effects....I spoke too soon. The exhaustion has hit me like a train without brakes. I don't feel too tired during the day like I did with the boys but there is some tiredness there. However, come 6 oclock I am ready for bed and struggle to wait until 9 so I am not up all night. I hope it stays like this because I can handle this going back to work. I remember with Ty I would come home at 4 and have to take a quick nap because I'd be exhausted and still was able to go to bed at 9 and sleep well. Perhaps it will be like that this time too but I don't seem to get tired until 6.
I am also ADDICTED to Taco Bell hot sauce. I sometimes go there and buy a taco just so I can pick up like 20 packets of hot sauce to put on everything. Bee loves spicy things! Sour too! She seems to have a nice mix of each Ty and Jacobs pregnancy. I keep saying she, I had a dream it was a girl so that's why I say she. We still have not decided if we will share the gender if we are blessed to get that far. Of course all we care about are internal organs! We are going to keep the name secret until the end because we got some good ones! We have a few for each gender though I am dead set on the one for a girl but boys...we're having a tough time.
Not much else to report on the pregnancy side of things. Still looking for a job and stressing about that but I know something will come up. Waiting to hear when our first appointment to see Bee is and if everything looks okay I'll post a picture.
5 1/2 Weeks: I am craving local asparagus and strawberries, but they have to be local. Once you have had local the regular pesticide crap tastes gross! I need to get out to Heemans to get some fresh veggies and fruit...mmm....I seem to be switching between craving fruits and veggies and then sweets. Its a perfect mix of the boys. I am glad because I need to fatten Bee up as much as possible, give her a good start since she will be born early! I will say it now, I am sorry Bee if you are a boy, I don't think you are, I had a dream you were a girl with a very specific name so until we find out you'll be referred to as she.
Found out our first appointment to see if Bee is really in there and doing okay is Wednesday June 20th! 2 weeks from today......cant say I feel nervous about it yet but I can guarantee, the day of, I will be a wreck!
5 weeks 6 days: I am exhausted! I think it may be from lack of sleep last night but wow....talk about tired. I am also feeling a bit nauseous today. I'll have to make sure to pick up some Diclectin at my appointment to get through the 9-11 weeks which is when I was really sick with Jacob. Though, no matter how ill I feel I can eat sweet potato fries and chipolte mayo all day long.
6 Weeks: Today I woke up feeling incredibly nauseous, I hope this is a good sign! I would feel a bit more relieved if I woke up to greet the porcelain king every morning, or night. It was like my body woke up and was like HEY oh yeah, your growing a baby, here have some exhaustion, morning sickness, aversions to food and smells....your welcome!
6 weeks 1 day:I had a dream last night that we went in for our 18 week ultrasound and the kidneys were there but something else was wrong with the baby. Yup, let the shear terror begin. I'll be a wreck leading up to that appointment. I did have a dream the other night that it was a boy so now I don't know what the gender may be.
6 weeks 2 days: Remind me again why I thought praying for some morning sickness would be a good idea? It's kicking my butt, need to figure out what works best to avoid medicine. So far peppermint gum first thing when I wake up seems to be helping but every time I try to eat I feel more sick so maybe I need to try bananas before bed again like I did with Ty, it seemed to help a bit. Heading out for breakfast this morning before the butterfly release, still don't think we are ready to share our news but I don't know when we will see everyone face to face again. I guess we'll just have to make a point to get out and see everyone. Off to feel sick some more and try to get ready. Thankful for the next few weeks I don't have to worry about getting up and going to work. I have also completely lost any appetite I did have for anything (though I am craving local strawberries so I may try that)
Did I also mention the shear terror I live in and the increase in panic attacks as the weeks go on? Today for example....With both Ty and Jacob I ended up being put on Diclectin because of morning sickness, which I will HAVE to get for Bee too. Anywho, even though I was on Diclectin, there were a few days I couldn't keep anything down (usually the 9 1/2 week mark when the hormones peaked) so my doctor advised me to take Gravol on top of the Diclectin to get through the hump. So yes, I have taken gravol with both pregnancies before. Fast forward to today, we had a lot to do and a lot of people to see and my guts we're having nothing to do with it so I caved and took a Gravol. We left and went about our day but the whole day I was silently freaking out inside because I don't know what category Gravol is in. See, there is this website called safefetus.com, which lists almost every medication (legal kind that is) and what category it is for pregnant women. A is the best followed by B, C and D. I always review my medications on there along with asking my doctor and the pharmacist, I like to know. Well I had never looked up Gravol before and despite having taken it with both boys and being advised by the doctor I freaked out that I didn't look before I took it. It took a few hours until I was able to get home and read that it is class B. I felt a lot better after reading that and looked into what Diclectin is..Class A, so I will have no fear taking it and hopefully it brings some relief because this constant gagging with no puke is not really my thang. I rather just get it all out like sweet potatoes and hummus.
Sometimes when I get really fearful I just come into the nursery, pick up Bee's blanket and knit away. I changed what I was making her. I found the most softest wool the other day, it's called Buttercup by Red Heart and just knew I had to use that instead. The best part about it is that because it is so fluffy, you can't tell if I drop or add a stitch! My goal is at least one row a night and I figure that gives me 210 more rows by the time Bee makes her appearance, or possibly more if I get more done. I think once we find out what we are having I may make another quilt specifically gender patterned. And on this note, I think I need to make a trip to the porcelain thrown now...YAH!!!!!!
6 weeks 4 days: Today I caved and ordered Diclectin, I was going to try and stick it out after finding out how much it cost yesterday (it's pricey like the progesterone) but after last night I absolutely have to be on it. I need to be able to eat so Bee can get all her nutrients. I also need to be able to sleep and not be up all night sick to my stomach (I've had to take Gravol twice now so I know it's time, I can't keep taking Gravol) I feel bad, horribly guilty, like I am hurting my child and even though it is a category A drug, I still wish I didn't have to take it but I really do need to. I took it with Ty but not until 12 weeks, ,I suffered through his morning sickness but with Jacob I started around 7 and only needed it until 11 so I am hoping since I am almost at 7 weeks I will only need it for a few weeks and can manage the rest of the time.
Update: I went to pick up my diclectin and was informed for 6 weeks it's $400....that's on top of the approximately $500 for progesterone...Bee is one expensive baby, I don't care though as long as we get to bring her home healthy, living and breathing. Going to try some natural remedies too, see if I can cut down on the number of Diclectin I need a day to help cut down the costs. My menu: Popcorn, Digestive Cookies, Dads Oatmeal Cookies, Pretzels, Rice Krispie Treats, Cheerios. Praying they work because we can't afford to dish out $900 on meds! Praying I get a job with benefits SOON!!!