23 Weeks 4 Days: That picture to the left, that cute little baby is also a VERY stubborn baby. We have gone for an ultrasound 3 times now and Bee refuses to change into a good position. Herim insists on being bum down face in so getting pictures of the heart are down right near impossible. But thanks to 3 ultrasounds we have all but one picture now and got the okay today that at this point Bee is healthy and well. I say at this point because I know anything can happen at any point.
Our appointment today went okay. 7am really is WAY to early though! If you ask Stephen our appointment today went very well, but according to me, mom the freakoutanator, I got a bit worried. Bee is only measuring at 23 Weeks and I say only because I am 23 and 4. However, anyone who works in the OB field and anyone who has had a child knows that the measurement is still great and on track. They do not start to get concerned until the baby starts measuring two weeks behind, which Bee is not. But the fear is there, the fear that it's what happened to Ty. He was little and had undiagnosed IUGR (which will not happen this time with all the monitoring) but the fear of it is there. To hear the baby is now 4 days behind scares me. Is this a sign of what is to come? Now the perfectly acceptable valid medical response to this worry I have, it is of no concern...yet. For one thing, Stephen and I are shorter people so it is no surprise Bee would be a shorty as well. And another, it is hard to measure a baby who is curled up in a tiny ball. Another, 4 days behind is not a concern yet. I guess the "yet" part scares me the most. Given, the weight is smack dab on track for 23w 4d and that's good so it must be that Bee takes after me in more ways then one, I'm short, Bee is short (and stubborn) Bee now weighs 1.17 pounds. Oh and did I mention how thankful I was that stabby mcstabberson did NOT do my ultrasound today. I had a tech I've never had before but she had to bring in the most awesomest one because Bee was just so stubborn.
The other issue...my blood pressure. Today it was 143/63. The last few times it has been about 133-136/72. Again, Dr thought it was of no concern as he knows how anxious I am so it did not surprise him. I also took my inhaler which can alter the top number but will keep an eye on it and start taking it at home when I am relaxed and calm to see if it makes a difference. If it is constantly high no matter where I am then it will need to be taken care of, if it is just at the hospital there are no worries and we'd reduce it to stress and anxiety. Our next appointment is in Halloween (3 weeks, I can do it, I just made it 4!) and my favourite test, the glucose test! No seriously, I love that drink soooo much I don't mind doing the test plus a slew of other blood tests and a quick visit with the doctor, no ultrasound is scheduled but probably will be set for two weeks after that. The baby isn't growing enough week by week to keep a track of the measurements until after 28 weeks so it really is no surprise. Of course, if anything goes wrong between now and then I'll go in but I just made it 4 freaking weeks without panicking and making a quick visit. I'm pretty proud. Treat myself to something this weekend (perhaps a gift from the gift shop at the butterfly conservatory)
So two things that neither my Dr or Stephen are concerned about but that I am slightly worried about. It makes me wonder how things are going to go, if this is any indication of the journey ahead or if things really are okay. As long as I work 4 more weeks (not including this week) I will be set with EI hours and can go on sick leave early (which I plan on doing anyways, just not sure how early) I know both things don't mean much right now but it's me, I'm worried. It's what I do, it's what mamas who go through pregnancy loss feel during a rainbow pregnancy. It's all we know.