I find it funny that for the first time in a long time when someone asks me "what's new" I actually have a response. You want to know what's new? Well, other than Bee totally rocking it like she usually does, learning and growing everyday. For those who missed the last few posts, I posted an I am Strong story on Birth Without Fear. It went viral, I mean VIRAL. I now have 725,000 likes, 205,000 shares and 61,000 comments (which I will get through one day and yes even the bad ones) Media took notice of my story. It has been published on ivillage, huffingtonpost blog and will be featured in a 30 Days of Hope with 30 inspiring people journey.
But, I saved the best for last, this week Stephen, Bee and I will be flying out to Los Angeles, the city of Angels to talk about our angels. We have been invited to appear on The Doctor's TV show to share our journey. My socks are still knocked off and my jaw is still on the floor. I can't believe it. I am beyond terrified (I hate planes) oh and you know, no pressure being in front of millions of people watching the show when I talk about infant loss. My body is kind of in the shut down mode and I'm just going along for the ride. So much rescue remedy has been taken along with a relaxing bath tonight and some acupuncture before we leave.
I do finally feel a bit of excitement. This was such an amazing opportunity that we could not pass up. Especially since most of the expenses are covered and even if we do have to dip into our dwindling savings a bit, this opportunity cannot be passed up. Infant loss is not a subject many talk about, especially not on national TV. This is big, this is HUGE!!!
Not only that, but Stephen and I decided since we've never been on a vacation together, we didn't even go on a honeymoon because we only found out two weeks before we got married that Jacob would not live, our plans had to change, that this would be our honeymoon (with Bee in tow) I know it'll sure be interesting, especially with the time change for Bee. I know I will throw up lots with fear of the plane ride and being on TV. I don't like being the center of attention at all, I don't like talking in front of people and especially not to people I don't know. This trip is pushing some major big boundaries and I know when we get back home, I'll need a week to recover. But it has to be done.
So off to Hollywood we go (literally) to be on The Doctors TV show and once I know the air date, I will make sure to post it.
I still can't believe how big Ty and Jacob went for their Birthdays! I said I wanted big and I was just thinking the donations of animals to a 3rd world country but I guess they decided this was bigger and decided mom and dad deserved a nice short firs trip ever.
Stay tuned for PTSD, GAD mom does Hollywood with an infant in tow after a 5 hour flight and a 3 hour time difference. I can only imagine the stories that will come.....