Yup....the car seat clinic was as horrible as I thought it would be but it's good we went to make sure if we are blessed enough for Bee to come home it's with safety. I just dreaded it and today did not help. I have felt so out of it today, sick to my stomach and feeling like I'm going to pass out at a moments notice. Work has been crazy and I'm just ready to be done with everything. On days I don't feel the best Bee is a lot quieter which makes me a lot more anxious but still passing kick counts.
So the car seat clinic went....so many things they said were stabs to my heart, they kept talking about being first time parents and making rookie mistakes and how to properly adjust the straps and I tried so hard not to break down because all I wanted to do was yell at them that we are NOT first time parents, that we have done this two times now and that they needed to stop saying when baby gets here...we've been there twice, we've done this stupid thing twice and yet we still have no baby. I just wanted them to shut up. I'm so thankful we did not have to wait, we were in and out and back home in no time.
We are now at home and I'm having some toast for dinner and then I'm heading to bed. Yes, 7pm bedtimes are in my near future. I can't stay awake, I'm exhausted (and kind of hoping my TSH test comes back with my levels down so I have an explanation for feeling like poo) but I do only have two more days of work thankfully. I took next week off to pack but I don't know if a lot of it will get done. Perhaps with me not working I will have more spurts of energy throughout the day to pack, if not last minute crap stuffed into boxes it will have to be.
I'm also finding that anytime I eat now my gallbladder has a fit...actually even eating is hard for me. I have no appetite and have to force myself to eat. I have still gained weight though, stuck at 16 lbs, I have 14 more to go in the next 6 weeks to gain what I did with both boys!
Speaking of 6 weeks......ummm what happened to November? We signed our lease for the new place around October 18th and had about 6 weeks to go before we moved and now it's a week away? HOLY MOLY!!!! Gives me hope that these last 6 weeks with Bee will fly by just as quickly. I know the last few days will be the longest days ever but those I can handle since I will be in the hospital. I just pray Bee is okay until then....
And on that note, I'm heading to bed. Hope I wake up feeling better, I need too. I can't go on like this much longer! Of course I will for Bee but it has been tough. I dont like complaining because I know I am blessed to carry life but it has been a very tough long road with many twists and turns and one exhausted mama! I just want Bee here safely in our arms.