Well life, you've been a bitch this week. I have not been able to catch a break, it's almost like you are trying to break me. Here's the thing, I have all the reasons not to be broken but please, for my sanity, give me a break instead of trying to break me,
I didn't get my Wednesday recover day. Everything that day was also scattered where it shouldn't have been. My mind checked out a long time ago so I can't even say what happened yesterday. I just know I picked Hank up and that's about it. The poor thing is clearly in pain while his paws heal. I'm hoping to get him some more meds in the meantime. I also know Charlie is still throwing up once a day so back to the vets for an xray we will have to go. I fear and will call it now, he ate something and will need surgery to remove it. I could even place a bet on that scenario. Not only because this has been a week from hell but because I seem him eat a ton of shit that she shouldn't and its so hard to make sure everything is away so he can't get it (ahem....Bee)
Woke up ill, had to miss counseling (which of all weeks I really needed) but I napped instead and that....was....GREAT! I haven't napped in forever but I was so tired I literally could not keep my eyes open so while Stephen took Bee swimming, I slept. Not the progressive day I was looking for (heck today just putting clothes on would have been progressive enough for me) But here I sit in my pj's comfy as hell and okay with it. Tonight I will go to bed early, I will not stay up late because I need sleep. Today was a hard day, Bee did not have school so ontop of not feeling well, she always likes to be really needy when mama is down and out. I normally don't mind but when I can't see straight, it's hard.
I have no idea what the weekend holds, we have plans but if this week has taught me anything it's that I should not make plans and wing it instead because plans never go according to plan. I just hope life sees that I need a breather and gives me one. If anything, at least OISTNB starts. Oh and did I mention that for the first time I am actually starting to feel a slight excitement about moving? I know right? I'm shocked too! Something about looking at Pinterest and knowing I can actually do a lot of what I pin now and walking through the aisles of Rona looking at blacksplash and flooring really makes me a bit excited. I can't wait to get in there, rip shit down, paint stuff, sand stuff, make it our home and just live and breathe. I need a hammock.