I had a very nice morning this morning. My husband ended up coming back last night and it was so nice to wake up and have him here. Something so small but it means so much to me to be able to wake up and have him by myside. I just wanted to clarify after the last post, our relationship is okay. The biggest thing is the fact we have not had much "us" time. Sure out of the last 10 months we have been at home together for 7 months but our focus was on grieving the loss of Ty and now dealing with the situation with Jacob. It has not left any husband and wife time. We have not been able to work on our relationship because we are so consumed with our children. We both know it is important and we will work on it in small amounts when we can. I know him and I need to get away, even if it is for a weekend, or even a day to reconnect and work on us. We don't have any problems, we don't fight or argue, we understand eachother, we communicate it's just we need to establish an "us" in our family and it will take time (especially because we have our hope and faith set very high on bringing Jacob home which is what our hearts desire) and we'll go from there. It just feels weird not to have an identity. We joined the young families committee at church so hopefully that will guide us a bit. There are some great young families there we can learn from. I don't think any have had a loss like is so we still need to work on incorporating Ty into our family but maybe that is where we can help other people. We are starting to do little things to help us at the moment since we are still very consumed in what has happened in the last 10 months and we really look forward to what lies ahead. I pray we can take Jacob apple picking this year, physically!
Speaking of Jacob, he passed his NST in 10 minutes again, no hiccups just himself and his little heart beat. Ultrasound tomorrow (YaH) and we are going to ask to have him measured. I don't imagine they'll say no,especially once we tell them why so hopefully we find out this week how well he is doing measurement wise and in 16-21 days he will be here with us. Ahhhh I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit excited, petrified more then anything and extremely anxious but a little excited as well.....
The clouds are so pretty today. So fluffy and white, we'll have to get out side later to the garden. Maybe after dinner we can get a popsicle and head down and watch the fountain.....so nice today.