Day 17: Do you feel your child is watching over you? I most certainly feel Ty is watching over us but I'm not sure about Jacob. Sometimes I feel he is but mostly Ty. I think Jacob is trying to find his own ways to show us he is watching over us but we haven't figured his signs out yet. It took me a while after Ty passed to feel him around me but then he started giving me all these signs and then I just couldn't deny it. One of the signs I will never forget from Ty...we were sitting at the cemetery one evening, later in the night when all the deer were out and they were over by where Ty is buried. As we were sitting there I was wondering if deer made a certain noise because I have seen many many deer in my life but I had never heard one make a noise and I asked Stephen and not 30 seconds after I asked Stephen did one of the deers make a noise. I never had heard it before and still have not heard it again. It was at that very moment I know Ty heard my question and answered it. The other thing that makes me certain at least Ty is here is Milo. I have had him for 6 years and in those 6 years he has never done what he does until after Ty passed. He will sit where ever he is just being a cat and then all of the sudden he will get this strange look on his face and look up at the ceiling and move his head around like he is watching something but there is nothing there that we can see. He started doing this after Ty passed and continues to do it. I really believe he can sense Ty is here. But now we aren't sure if it's Ty or Jacob. I still think it's Ty and Jacob is outside our living room window because now he will do the same thing and look out the living room window when nothing is there, not only that, Charlie does it sometimes too and he never has before, not even with Ty. So I have to believe both of the boys are out there watching over us, protecting us, guiding us, sending us signs (we just need to figure Jacob's out)
Today was tattoo day number 2. When I got Ty's done I took some pain meds before I went and it still hurt but it was manageable and it didn't bother me once she was done. I didn't take pain meds before Jacob's and wow...talk about painful! It hurt soooooo much more and the pain was worse afterwords so we stopped by to say Hi to the boys quickly then home to drug up. But it was totally worth it. I LOVE them, I know my boys are always with me but now they "walk" with me every where I go. I never thought I would get a tattoo, let alone two, but they are so meaningful and special and it just seemed right. They are exactly like the boys footprints....Jacob's footprints are solid where as Ty's had his little wrinkles in it.