My husband is so awesome. Not only did he get up early to come see me yesterday because I had a bad night, he stopped by before bed with cupcakes and laughs. He was going to spend the night but he forgot somethings. I am so very blessed to have him in my life. He makes things so much easier. He's funny and very positive. I love him so much!
Day two evening went by fine. I took a nap and watched some tv, knitted and did crosswords. Dinner was ...meh.... the ham and butterscotch ice cream was really good but the rest was...well I just wasn't feeing it. I'll have to get some things today to keep here. I had a clown come visit and show me some magic tricks which I am still trying to figure out. (a friend of ours is a clown on the side) Sat around some more, then the hubby came to visit and after he left I went to bed. I slept much better last night. It was quiet and cool. Up at 6:30....waiting for breakfast and then I get an LOA to go to church, visit the boys and go see Ty Ty. It should be a good day, plus I have cupcakes (because my husband rocks) and you can't go wrong with cupcakes.
Day There - I hear the constant sounds of babies crying. I can't help but feel a bit sadened. We never got that with Ty and I don't know if we will with this one. I feel a lot more hopeful then ever before (because of God) and I pray in a few weeks we get to hear that joyous sound as well. I figured out why it sounded like the lady in the room next to me was giving birth.....because she was! We asked the nurse earlier and she said when labour and delivery is full they put some women in the antenatal unit so that's why I heard that. I'm not loosing my mind....yet....
My loa was nice, church was a good sermon today about having Faith even though you can't see what will happen (which is Stephen and I right now) It seemed even more fitting given my dream last night, a message from God. I don't remember where I was but God was talking to me and he said Stephen and I are who he wants to teach others about hope and faith and that is why he made this happen. He felt we needed inspiration and experience to preach about it so that is why we are going through what we are. In the dream our baby did live as part of us teaching about hope and faith we had our miracle. I've felt quite at peace today after that dream.Like I said nothing a doctor tells me will make me feel better or have more hope but rather what God tells me, deep in my heart that is what I find peaceful.
On a completely different note....I did laundry today. They have laundry here for inpaitents so I brought my own clothes and towels and blanket. So nice to have a bit of home. I brought plenty of cat hair back with me as well....loved the heck out of my boys while I could. Now I have to wait a whole week...ahhhh my fur babies...I miss them so incredibly much. But were doing what we have to do. Babe passed NST this morning. Seems to be quite active which is good. No major concerns yet, more monitoring in 2 weeks. Decorated my room a bit...I'd post pictures but that's the one thing I can't do on my entertainment consel. But next Sunday when I am at home I'll post some. I have such a nice view and nice little private room. I even took a picture of my favourite hospital meal.....pepperoni pizza....can't really mess that up. It was good. We'll see how the roast turkey with potatoes is tonight. Not to sure about the BBQ porkrib tomorrow though, it's a good thing I brought some food.
I really like my nurses so far,I've only had two but their nice. I got to talk about Ty and share his picture which was really nice because being here, even though I am in a different area then when we had Ty, theres a lot that reminds me of him. Especially the water cups. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. I really miss him but I know he is watching over us and protecting us.
I'm still holding strong emotionally. I thought it would be hard and at times it is because I miss my cats and Stephen. Not even ...I mean yes I miss being at home but if Stephen and the cats we here with me 24/7 I'd be fine, their what makes our home...home. I haven't cried yet, I do expect in a week or two my strength may weaken, especially as we get closer to the delivery date (which is still undecided but still by Sept. 8th) I know it will get tougher, not knowing is a scary thing, but like in church today, trust in the risks you take, have faith and God will guide you.
I still am not use to this keyboard, it really is an arm workout to type! But dinner is almost here so I'm going to get ready for that...here's to the roast turkey...I'll give my report tomorrow.