Last night was our Bereaved Families 5K run, I volunteered the last two years as a people watcher due to the miracle of life growing inside me. Stephen has run the past two years (and got a new records time this year, plus a trip to the ambulance because he almost passed out, I told him NO passing out but he didn't listen) Anyways, when we get together with our infant loss families we almost always have a nice time but tonight was a bit different because there was oh about 4995 other people there as well so I was a bit anxious. But really, once we got there and met up with everyone, it was like no one else existed (unless you were trying to fight your way through the crowd to get to the food, drinks or bathroom) I know before I have often said that I'm at a point where I am having okay days. Not great but not horrible, okay, however tonight I can officially say I had a GREAT night!!!!! I really did, I enjoyed myself, laughed, cried, everything, it was so nice. I cannot say how blessed Stephen and I are and how thankful we are to have such awesome people in our life. I really did have a GREAT night and I feel amazing after it! These people are such a blessing in our life, we know them only because of our loss but we all have become so much more.
It's amazing the relationships and bonds we create with others in our situation. Our get togethers aren't always sad, sometimes we laugh and have a great time but sometimes we cry because we miss our angels but it feels so right and not awkward at all. It's like we can switch from talking about one thing, to our angels, on to something else and it's so normal for us. And we know when these people ask how we are, they want the hard core raw truth, they don't want the fake smile with the standard "I'm okay" they want to know because they really do care. It's also so amazing to see how everyone goes through their grief. Some angels passed away almost 3 years ago, some 2, some 1 and some not even 1 yet. But no matter where we are in our journeys we all get it, we all understand each other and I'm thankful we have that because not everyone does and I can only imagine how hard that is for some people. So thank you to all our wonderful extended family members, we love you all so much, we care about you all so much, we pray for each of you every night, we thank God you are in our lives and especially for tonight, Thank you for helping me have a GREAT night. It may not have been the full day but I'll totally take the 5 hours that it was!