A few of my friends have talked a lot about Karma lately and it made me ponder....I don't think I necessarily believe in it. I have learned over the last 18 months that life is unfair and unjust. There are people in this world who are evil, deceitful and ungodly and it seems to me most of the time, those people actually have a lot of stuff they've always wanted in life. They get good jobs, become rich, have the perfect family and lots of wealth. Then there are people who use the government for money, they could go out and get jobs but they don't. My tax money goes towards paying for their drug and alcohol addiction but yet these people can get knocked up like bunny rabbits and pop out kids. They smoke, drink and do drugs while pregnant and also after they have children but justice is rarely served and kids grow up in unsafe, unhealthy environments. I don't mean to be judgmental but it is an observation I have seen a lot lately. Then there are people like us who struggle through life. One huge knock and we are down and out and getting back up is hard and long. Many of you may not realize the financial implications loosing a child has on a couple, what life changing events it can cause a couple to go through. One of the reasons we chose not to move is because we can not afford it but also because I am learning to live and love what I have and not expect anything else. But I'll let you in on some Jessica Wisdom....
Those people probably have no idea what true happiness is, they don't know what real love is, what life is truly about and that is something I am so thankful to have learned. Sure people all around me are having kids, ones that smoke, drink and do drugs while pregnant but those people don't have the love and support I do and I'd never trade that just to have kids. I know it's true that people who don't deserve things always seem to get them, trust me I know a little TOO well, but in my heart I know I have so much more than they will ever have. I am dedicated and I think I'll understand and appreciate the rewards of life much more having had to work so hard for them. At least that is where I am and how I try to look at the world because if I looked at it any other way, I'd loose it. We live in an unfair world but I do prefer my way of life over those who get things they want because I do have more than they will ever have. I don't believe in Karma because you rarely see bad things happen to bad people and good things happen to good people. But, I do believe in having a rich and rewarding life full of love, kindness, care and support, you just have to work for it (though again, I think that makes it a million times better by the time you do reach it)
Now if I can keep reminding myself of that, I'll be set.