A few months ago I read something (which is amazing I even remembered it) that has stuck with me ever since. I couldn't tell you where I read it but I remember reading it. It was talking about living with what you have and to make the best of it. I know a few days ago I posted 64 reasons why we need to move and given some are very valid, we simply can't afford it right now (though I have been keeping my eye out and maybe in a few months when we know what's going on with a few of our prayers) so I am trying to make the best of what we have. I am trying to take care of things on that list that I can. I am re-organizing so we can address our storage issues. We are trying to keep up on the mouse problem, we bought sonic plugs and set the mouse traps often. Sadly I think we can never get a hold of the mouse issue in the storage closet but at least I can make sure everything in there is mostly in plastic boxes (including food, nothing a trip to the dollar store can't help) Stephen needed more space for his work computer so I put up some shelves and we're going to get him a new desk. I was tired of not being able to eat at the kitchen table so I am making my own little sewing area next to the guest bed. Come Spring time I am going to have the landlord deal with the mold in the windows (there okay for now because they are sealed shut for the winter) the laundry and stairs I have no control over but we have a roof over our heads and most of the time it's warm. We have to live with what we have until we can move on to something else. It may not be ideal and it may not be what we want or need but it is what we have. I know I really want an extra room to decorate as a nursery but we don't need that right now, if we move and have the space I will do it then but right now it's not what we have so it doesn't fit.
I've seen so many ideas on pinterest and I wanted to do them but I wanted to wait until we had a more permanent place. However, I don't see that happening for a little while longer so I decided just to do some of the things here, make it more homie because if we are stuck here another year we might us well make it work as best we can for us. We do need some new things (kitchen table and desks) but for now we are living with what we have and praying for the opportunity to move on sometime this year.
On a completely different subject, I know my thyroid has been off because my toes have been cold. Every time my thyroid acts up and stops responding to the meds my feet get really cold. What I did not know is how much it was off. I have been beyond exhausted the last 2 weeks, worse then when I was pregnant and today I got the answer as to why I've been so out of it. My thyroid is suppose to be between 0.35 and 5. When I had it tested in December (4 weeks ago) it was at 0.24 so she had me bump down my dosage...well today I found out it's at 48!!!!!! No wonder why keeping my eyes open is such a chore right now. I'm hoping the slight increase in meds is enough to make it better and settle everything back down. Not only does it make me exhausted and my feet cold, it affects my cycle and affects my ability to loose weight (which could explain why I am stuck and not seeing any results) so I really hope it settles out soon for my own sake. My body can only take so much with the grief, I don't need this on top of it.
Okay back to making the best with what we have, finishing the sewing and work area and then the kitchen and hopefully putting the clothes away...my body is screaming for a nap (thanks thyroid) but I simply need to get things done!
I also just wanted too wish a very special little sunflower a Happy 1st Birthday in Heaven and to let her know her mommy is amazing and I am so lucky to know her. <3 Sadie Mae <3