My attempt at BBQ was a no go. I was too busy attending to something else that I need to take care of, something I can't mention but that is EXTREMELY stressful. I can only pray it works itself out and God gives me guidance and strength to get through it. I'm just so lost and clueless when it comes to this thing. I've done all I can and now all I can do is wait. It's stressful, I do believe in myself and I hope others do as well. I just wish I could catch a break, but like I've learned over the last 18 months, I'll never catch a break. I have to work hard and harder to even get somewhere small! I can never be handed something because then I may not appreciate it as much, trust me at this point I'd appreciate anything!
My new theory : Better start liking lemonade because I don't know what else to do with all these lemons life is giving me!