Ever since I have been off my medication I have not been able to sleep. The only exception was Wednesday night, I always sleep well after our infant loss meetings. But that has been the only night. Every other night I have gone to bed at 9, read for awhile, turned out the light and laid there. I lay there for hours and finally around 2 or 3 am I take a gravol. Last night I tried rocking myself to sleep, didn't work it ended up being another gravol night. Gravol isn't horrible but that bad thing is, I always wake up the next day with bad headaches. So today I have been dealing with a horrible headache and when I get headaches (which my maxalt doesn't do anything for, it only helps my migraines for some reason) I try Tylenol. I know Tylenol always makes my headaches worse yet I continue to take them in hopes of it helping. It usually does about 8 hours later. I don't want to take gravol but I need to sleep and that is the only thing working right now. Tonight I am going to try Good Night Irene tea (which has valerian root in it, which is suppose to help you sleep) and perhaps a bubble bath a bit before bed and see how that goes. If it does nothing, then maybe I will try nightly walks again, or putting a book beside my bed so I can write down all the thoughts running through my head. It's not that I worry about anything, it's just I have a lot to think about. Or so it seems at 11pm.
Add on top of all of that, my husband and Charlie. My husband has been a bit restless lately so he has been moving around a lot in his sleep which makes it even harder for me to fall asleep. Charlie also is very fond of being chatty at night and letting us know what is going on by means of meows, scratching the plastic window coverings (which we can't take down until our landlord fixes the mold and that seems like it'll be a while) scratching the wardrobe, jumping all over us, tearing around the house....just about anything that gets us up he does. Maybe they are all trying to prepare me for when we have a little one at home...but I really could just use the sleep now.
I took the day off from sewing to work on some baby loss mama packages and to clean. I figure if I get the house all clean this weekend then I will have nothing else to do but sew and I can get lots and lots of goodies sewn. I also intend on using Senior Serge a bit more to see how him and I get a long and see what delightful items we can come up with.
The weather is suppose to be unbearably hot all week which I am NOT looking forward too. I am a spring loving girl, sunny but cool, just like fall. Diving right into summer is not cool and if summer is already here and is going to be long, add central air to the list of requirements for our next place.
Okay, here goes another night of trying so hard to sleep....I really hope everything I try tonight will work...I need to sleep!