Stephen and I are heading out for our Honeymoon Saturday and we leave my mother with a dying frog. I do believe there has always been one dominate frog and this guy was not the dominate one. He has been floating at the top since yesterday, I've tapped on the glass and he still moves but not much, he has not swam down in a few hours, we do believe Ty and Jacob will soon be getting a new pet in Heaven. We'll have to get another set so the lonely guy doesn't feel so lonely. I can't flush him just yet because he is still somewhat a live so I'll wait until he is belly up for most of the day and try prodding him to see if he will move and if not then we'll flush him.
We'll be packing tomorrow for our honeymoon and I think both of us are nervous. I'll admit it right now, I'm not really that excited anymore, I feel the anxiety creeping up to a place I don't want it to be. I want a break from it all, I want to leave Saturday morning and feel relatively okay but I know it may turn into a catastrophe. At least I will have my husband by my side and my mom will be here looking after all our boys (and the dying frog) but even that does not calm my nerves. We have been away for a few hours when we went to Port Huron and all I wanted was to come home, I can only imagine how a night away will feel, I doubt I will even sleep! But I will go and put on my fake smile and pretend to have a good time and perhaps at moments in the beauty of the falls and the serenity and quietness of the night I will enjoy it for a moment, maybe even feel connected to the boys. I don't expect much and I think that's the best way to look at it. If I expect to go and have a good time and smile I'm really setting myself up (kind of like the baby expo) but if I go expecting to cry a lot and be miserable and I do enjoy my time, well it's a win for me. I can't really predict how it will go, I know going to Port Huron was not great but it is a different setting and we have tons of stuff to keep us busy, things neither of us have done (minus Ikea, we go there a lot) Or plan is to get up early Saturday morning and leave by 9. It takes about 2 1/2 hours to get to the Falls but we want to stop at Ikea on the way. We'll check in, get all of our goodies, head to the bird kingdom, go have dinner at outback, head to Dave and Busters, walk around the falls at night (it is suppose to rain so we better bring umbrellas, I don't mind rain as long as it's not a thunderstorm, if its a warm rain I may even forgo the umbrella) then head back to try and go to sleep. Wake up in the morning head to the buffet and once breakfast is gone head home. I expect we will be gone approximately 28 hours. It seems so small to most but to me I'm sure it will seem like an eternity. I am bringing my camera and will be taking pics, Stephen and I have two pictures of us since we lost Ty (minus wedding, mat and NILMDTS with Jacob) but real pictures of us doing normal people things, we have two. I guess its mainly because we don't go anywhere so it will be nice to get out and I will try my hardest to have a good time.
So not only is the frog on the fritz, I went outside to clean up the garbage because the raccoon go to it again and there was a dead baby bird. I felt so bad so I dug a hole and buried him. It really brought my attention to the fact the boys are buried underground and I am so thankful they are in caskets that will take years to even begin to disintegrate because the little birdi had fly's and maggots all over it and I felt so bad that it was happening to the poor little things little body. I can't imagine knowing Ty and Jacob are in the ground but thankful that they are in caskets. I ended up throwing out the garden shovel I used because who knows what kinds of diseases it had. Washed many hands thoroughly even though I used gloves. Poor little birdy. At least now it has been laid to rest properly. He is no longer baking in the sun on our back walkway being eaten by all kinds of animals but lays quietly under the earth where he was born from. Rest In Peace little birdy.
I just wanted to say thanks to the person who commented on my post the other day about the Blue Jays. I don't know why I didn't think of that! My husband is actually going to a game next week with his dad and I knew they were there from last time we went but I was clueless so thanks for giving me the heads up on remembering that and before he went. I will soon have me two stuffed Blue Jays. I tried explaining to my husband what he was required to get and I said "real blue jays, the stuffed kind, not that kind that is the logo" he thought I meant taxidermy blue jays....eww no! So I gave him a picture of what I was looking for. LOL can you imagine my face if he did come home with two taxidermy blue jays and I freaked out and he said to me, well it's what you wanted, you said two real stuffed blue jays. I'm glad we clarified what I meant before he went.
Actually now that I am typing this I am realizing we are going to the Bird Kingdom in Niagara Falls this weekend, they are bound to have them there and perhaps even more blue jay items Ekkkk. I was also looking online and maybe if I feel daring enough I'll hold a big snake! Or maybe not go as crazy and hold a bird.
And thanks to my Aunt Karen, Stephen and I will be able to enjoy another date night at Milestones! That I did enjoy, mmm...sweet potato fries and steak with mashed potatoes and veggies....yum!