I feel a lot better after my rant yesterday and from now on Stephen will be dealing with people on the phone since he can keep his composure a lot better than me! Group last night, as always, really helped. Just being there, listening to other people, crying, lots of crying, some more crying and hugs always help. I've said it before and I truly mean it, being around people who have walked a journey very similar to ours, it is so...I can't even describe it. I'm very thankful to have met all the wonderful families that we have, it goes to say I wish it were under different circumstances, but I love my extended family that I have gained over the last 18 months....
Speaking of 18 months, Sunday.....Sunday is a day I am not looking forward too. 18 months, I cannot believe it has been 18 months since we said hi and bye to Ty. Where did the time go? The last 18 months have been such a blur! Not only is it 18 months since Ty's birthday but on Sunday we are heading to a memorial for sweet baby Grace. It'll be an emotional day for sure, I swear, we should invest in some Kleenex stocks or something. I am very honoured to get to go to her memorial and I hope her parents find some peace in it. I know I did after Jacob's funeral.
Today has been a bit emotional too, but not for anything in my life. When I was going through my pregnancy with Jacob I joined a group for Potter's moms. Through that group I met a lady named Melissa. She was due to have her son a few months after Jacob. She delivered him in November, he passed away a few hours later. In January her husband was in the hospital waiting to get some tests and surgeries done but he did not make it. He passed away from a heart condition. Shortly after her husband passed away she was diagnosed with liver and intestinal cancer. I have recently learned that there isn't much they can do. She may only have 6 months left. She has two little girls, a 4 year old and a 2 year old that have not only lost a brother, a father but now to, unless a miracle happens, possibly her mother. Please keep her and her family in your prayers. It just breaks me heart to hear of such sadness and makes me even more thankful for being alive. I don't try to take anything for granted anymore because I know nothing is guaranteed and hearing her update that she has about 6 months or less, unless a miracle happens, makes me realize, I'm very blessed (and I know I am) But my heart breaks for her little girls.....I just can't talk about it anymore, it makes me cry too much.
Back to painting doors, doing the dishes and keeping myself distracted from the strong sad emotions I have been having lately.