Stephen ended up coming home last night and I was very thankful. I always feel better when he is here with me. Though that meant he had to leave this morning at 6am (he was up at 5) poor guy! BUT, the end is near, these almost daily trips will be done soon, or at least severely reduced. He still has to go back up for a few days in August but after that maybe only once in a while. I'm so thankful and I hope they do not make him travel in bad winter weather, I'd not be okay with that. Especially in our tiny car...though we may get snow tires it doesn't do a whole lot when a semi comes crashing into you. I have a fear of car accidents. I've been in two, one was pretty bad and I still suffer from it to this day. Add on top the time our last car almost killed us on the highway, I get a lot of anxiety while driving. Mostly in our smaller cars because driving in Stephens truck I feel a lot safer. Too bad we can't keep it.
I don't know what my plans are for today. I think I may go look into getting the fur babies a new food and hoping that cuts down on Milo's allergies. Perhaps mopping the floors since I didn't get to it yesterday and making some meatballs. I start work in less then a week and I am both excited and nervous about it. I always get nervous starting a new job but this time I've met everyone there and they all seem so wonderful so it has eased a bit of the anxiety. I'm just worried how my body will handle it. I've been very good about staying awake during the day and getting up early (minus today, today was a rough morning) but I'll get back on track tomorrow. I'll have to think of some lunch ideas and snack and go shopping this weekend. The office isn't really located near many food places so I have to bring my own, which is probably better anyways.
I did end up going out, picked up some fabric to make peasant dresses, ordered the boys food (fur boys) and grabbed some meat to make meatballs...yah for today going by relatively not at snails pace. I may have also picked up a slice of cheesecake to indulge in.....
I was also thinking lately, and I don't think I mentioned it before. One of the reasons I am very excited about my new job is because I have the opportunity to grow and go back to school (which they cover and I've been wanting to go back to school) After losing the boys my heart was set on working in non-profit working with people who experience loss or hardships and my heart is still very much set on doing that. The thing about where I am going to work is it's kind of similar to that line of work. I'm working for a place that helps people with bankruptcy issues and in one sense, that is a loss, that's a loss of someones life and the need to get back on ones feet. You are dealing with people who have hit a hard point in their lives and some may very well have had a lot of losses jobs, houses, cars, lifestyles they were accustomed too. Given, it's not human loss or more specifically infant loss but there really are no jobs in that line so I figure this is the next best option. I am really excited to start work and even more so to go back to school and get some counseling classes in. I'm so thankful for this opportunity and I just know God put me there for a reason.
I don't know if I mentioned, since accepting the job I have had 3 additional calls for interviews at a place I really wanted to be but I turned them all down (of course they all come at once, they couldn't come two months ago when I was looking) but I contemplated for a day about whether or not to just go to them but I decided not to. I have an amazing opportunity waiting for me at this new place and I am very excited about all the doors it will open for me (and YAH I get to take some more courses which I LOVE doing!) As tempting as it was, I know I am going to be where I am needed and can do many great things for many great people well working more in the line of work I want to. Though it's not non-profit it's purpose is to still help people going through a difficult time and that is what I want in life, to help them.