So our trip to Toronto went alright. I was very nervous all day so of course my subconscious was acting up making me think I was in pain, well I mean I was in pain from walking, I get so sore from walking these days, Matea's weight really pulls on my stomach muscles. But my "kidneys" were sore, I had a bad headache, everything because I was so nervous. The day was enjoyable though, we picked up a lot of things at Ikea to redecorate our house a bit, upgrade from the boyfriend/girlfriend Goodwill days to the married couple Ikea days. The hardest part of Ikea was of course walking through the children's section. I have walked through so many times imaging what I would decorate my children's rooms with, I even bought Ty's bedset from there so it was hard to go through yet again and still not "need" anything, just hopes and dreams is all I got. I wanted to get a hooded towel (picture below) for myself but we decided to wait, gives us a reason to go back.
After Ikea we headed downtown Toronto to grab some food before the game. We went to a place across from the Skydome (Roger's Centre) that had really good ribs and Stephen treated himself to a Lindt Ice Cream Cake slice (I did indulge in a bit of it) We headed to the game to meet his dad and we did some shopping at the Blue Jays store. I have been looking for something particular for a Father's Day gift but I have yet to find it. I also wanted to get something for Tea but since we aren't sure on the gender anymore I couldn't get as much as I wanted too so we got a stuffed blue Jay (picture below) She seemed to really like the game (or the fact I was finally resting) and was kicking like crazy through the whole game, though I think she fell asleep like everyone else during the top of the 3rd when it was the longest inning ever. So all in all it was an okay day. I am glad I forced myself to go but it wasn't easy. I did have a lot of anxiety all day but Tea let me know she was okay. Today was a day of rest and redecorating. I'm so tired today so not a lot of emotions going on. I'm nervous about tomorrow, we meet the genetic counselor and someone else (I don't remember who) and I'm worried what they are going to say or want to do. They did schedule another full scan ultrasound on June 14th to check the status of things and see where my placenta is. I am having a hard time scheduling the 3D/4D ultrasound but I hope I am able to soon, I really want to see our baby better. I want to see a change, I want to see fluid, I want to see kidneys, I want things to be okay. I guess we may have more answers tomorrow at the counselors.....I probably won't sleep much tonight, I'm just to nervous.