Ty's headstone was installed today as you can see. It is absolutely perfect. I designed it myself and I am so pleased with how it turned out. There were a lot of tears today seeing this, it just really sets things in a more permanent state of mind. I am so thankful he was properly laid to rest and has a beautiful headstone for all to see. I cannot wait to see how Jacob's turns out! I'll get a better picture tomorrow when it is nice and sunny out.
As I was leaving his grave today I went to blow him his usual see you later kiss and as I looked up to blow it to him there was a hawk soaring round right above me. Hawks are one of Ty's signs and it was so nice to see that, it made me feel a lot of peace. I've been asking the boys to send some more signs, I really have needed them lately. Ty sent me his Hawk and Jacob has filled many days with sunshine. I love my boys and all their signs.
Speaking of signs, I have been seeing things all Noah related lately. Everywhere I go, even in my dreams, I dream of Noah's. I dream of a little boy named Noah. I see pictures of little boys named Noah, I see personalized items everywhere with the name Noah on them and when I see these things I also usually see something related to a "miracle" story or a rainbow and I cannot help but to think it is a sign for us. Noah is what we want to name the little boy we bring home (whenever and however that may be) and everything I have seen lately is Noah related. I told Stephen though I have a feeling whatever we have next (adopted or not) will be a girl. But I can't ignore all the signs from "Noah's" it sure gets my mind and heart going.....I wish Ty and Jacob were here with us....the days surely do not get easier.