2012 was rung in with days of nauseous feelings, headaches and migraines. I've been on the couch the last 3 days not being able to function. I did manage a walk yesterday but it exhausted me. I shoveled this morning but that made my headache worse so I put on Buffy (my guilty pleasure) and tried to rest today. One of the episodes had my new mantra for this year "I was being patient but it was taking too long". Oh how so very very true. I have been patient for 18 months for something good to come our way, a break per-say, and it's taking way too long! I had a good laugh when the character said it....I feel it so much. I can relate to it so well. I feel I am falling farther behind instead of taking steps forward. It's really hard when we have so many goals but I have no energy to even make myself lunch, or dinner for that matter. I have no energy to do anything, not with these headaches and insomnia and nauseous feelings. It's so tough. I really am trying to be patient but it's getting to the point where it is taking too long. In one sense I feel it gives me motivation to get off my butt and do something about if, but I can't. I have no energy. I am not sleeping, I feel horrible and I don't know what to do to make it better. I swear this house is cursed. I can't even find the strength to work out when I know I have to, to get this weight off. I guess you can consider shoveling a workout, I did shovel for 30 minutes and will have to go back out tomorrow to finish digging us the rest of the way out. I don't mind shoveling. I generally like it because I like being out in the cold fresh air and I like that it burns calories. I just wish I had the energy to do it. Hoping these head and belly aches are from hormones and they go away in a few days. I'm sure they are, it'd just be nice to know for sure.
I don't have much else to say....just kind of waiting to see how this year is going to start off and where it might go. I haven't been doing much due to feeling ill and being beyond exhausted and I'm trying to finish some products and change my facebook page for Tycob's Boutique around so I can start to get that going. I also have to get to the post office now that it should be quieter to get some quotes for shipping items so I can include them in the prices. I also need to find a wash machine to borrow so I can finish the rag quilts. I don't trust the laundry mat washers knowing how the last few times we have gone they have ruined our clothes with grease stains (one of the many reasons I hate that we don't have a washer and dryer) then I need to print off tags, get some ribbon to tie the finished products with, learn how to take better pictures and then sell sell sell. Stephen is working away and will be very busy this month so I get to be at home and try to take my time to get better and try to figure things out. I have so many decisions to make and some of them are overwhelming but I have to do it eventually. I have to get back into some sort of life eventually because I don't get a break. I just hope I am guided to what I am suppose to decide so I don't have to think too hard about it. Praying it leads to a new place to live, I have been keeping my eye out for apartments but there is nothing that suits our needs. Nothing worth the hassle of moving so we sit with the mold and mice and wait.
In the meantime, if I can muster up the energy, I will be sewing away.